It's been awhile. So many things have happened. I don't rightly know where to start. I realised that I can't seem to remember anything that happened before chiang rai. It was like my life before chiang rai somehow got wiped out from my memory, as if it didn't have enough significance for me to remember it. In some way it is true. After chiang rai, everything seems to have been put into perspective for me. Personality wise I haven't seem to change much, but deep inside I can feel like something has shifted. It's the kind of change where you seem to do and see things in a whole new perspective, as if I've suddenly become aware of everything around me and living life a little more conscious that before. Have I spent 15 years of my life asleep? Because it definitely feels like it. I can't really describe this change, but it feels good. It's like I'm more alive.

After chiang rai was council camp. Physically I was extremely tired, but emotionally I somehow felt awake. I could get through the day with 4 hours of sleep, which is by far amazing for me because for those who know me, I sleep alot. I could get through the day with a smile, without snapping at someone. I don't know how I did it but somehow I did. I kinda died on the last day though. I could actually feel my body shutting down. Like if i sat down for awhile, i would've fallen asleep, but I pulled through with loads of encouragement from the exco. Sigh, I really don't know what I'd be without them. I've seen them everyday since school ended, their like my new family. I love them:)